Day #2 Downs and Ups

Yes, my doctors name is Ratanatharathorn.

Today, I had the chemo with all the alcohol in it. I started feeling sick before it even began because of the anti-nausea meds I had to take. Tomorrow, I'm going refuse to take the one that makes me feel like I have no strength and makes me think that life really stinks. It is a risk that I am willing to take. I think I would rather have nausea than take that medication. I have had those feelings once before but I didn't know if it was the nausea meds or the chemo. It was so bad that all I wanted to do was lay down and pray for relief. I usually don't pray out in vain like that but today was one of those days I begged for relief for a few hours.

I tried to sleep through the chemo and the bad feelings slowly melted away. The rest of the day I felt fatigued and had a small headache. I couldn't focus on one thing for too long so I didn't read or watch tv. During the chemo infusion the fumes from the chemo in my room were so bad that the nurse asked my family to leave the room! I took a nap around five and slept until nine. When I woke I felt like a new person, refreshed, and alert. It's amazing how I can be in the dumps for a good part of the day and then feel like singing and dancing. Katie and I drank V8 juice and watched "50 First Dates". The humor was slapstick in the beginning but the movie got a lot better as we watched.

Tomorrow, I receive two different types of chemo that I will get for the next four days. Fun stuff.